i'm sitting on my bed. Feeling kind of melancholy which i guess is nothing abnormal. i'm listening to my "destroyed; best way possible" playlist which is definitely not helping. i'm not sure why i do this. Listen to depressing music when i'm depressed. i should be listening to happy music, to lift my spirits. That's the theory, anyway. That's what my mother says. She thinks if i just listen to happy music i'll be a much happier person. But i don't want to talk about my mother right now, it will just make me mad. But really, sometimes i listen to a happy song when i'm like this and it makes me worse. Like there's this feeling that i'm missing and i can see it but i can't feel it. i can't reach out and touch it. And i remember the first time i listened to all these songs and remember how i felt when i heard the lyrics and the music behind it all. And how i felt the second time i heard the song. And i miss the first times i heard the songs because they were new and exciting and something beautiful to listen to. But sometimes now, it's like i hear the first note of a song and i just know it will hurt if i keep listening to it. Because i've heard the song so much that i know the emotions it gives me. That's what my Destroyed playlist is all about.

But. That's not actually what i was going to say right now! It just came out because i was talking about what i was listening to. Pfft.

i was going to tell you about my cat. Because she's lying on me right now, sleeping. Technically she's not my cat. She's my sister's, but she always sleeps on my bed. Her name is Sammy and she is very beautiful. My sister loves her very much. i'm sure she'd be very proud of me for dedicating a blog post to Sam. Let me find a picture for you.

Sammy in a washing basket.

This morning i was at Kelsey's house because it's Thursday. And Charlie was being all whiny and asking for food. Charlie is Sammy's sister, see. Sammy lived in Kelsey's house with Charlie until we took her. Her name actually used to be Max, but my sister renamed her.

Sometimes Sammy is very lazy and sleeps all day but that is very rare. She likes to chase things. i don't think she has any animal friends because she always gets angry at anyone who comes to close. Actually, i think i'm probably one of the only creatures that she comes close to by choice. Loved = Me. Even so, when she's in a hyper mood she likes to pounce on anything that moves and also most inanimate objects. She comes into my room and climbs onto my shelves and knocks things over. It's rather annoying, so i often find myself kicking her out of my room. Which makes me feel bad, 'cause i love her (: 

Sammy is nice and fluffy and always listens to me rant to her. 

That was my story about Sammy, i think probably because i need distracting :/

i think Sammy's slightly confused here. 

As a side note, i'm very disappointed that i haven't managed to cross anything off my list yet. Rawr.